Tuesday, July 31, 2007, 01:48 AM [
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I haven't posted for awhile. Because frankly this space, not much goes on. I either check my myspace. Or play pogo. Read my mail. Talk with my friends. I do what most people online do.
We had my oldest grand daughter's father move in with us. She hasn't seen him in about 5 years. So for her it's been a little difficult. And. This past week, we lost a very close person to us. She was my oldest daughter's God Mother. She was a very special soul. And even if we didn't see eye to eye in the religion. We where close in other ways. I loved her like a sister and I am going to miss her deeply. She was only 37. And has left a 15 year old. We drove all the way to Colorado to see her off.It was sad. A long trip. And I feel as if I am bone weary and very tired.
With her being so young. I begin to wonder. If one of my own adult children tell me that they love me with out any cause. If maybe that dark being we call death is going to take one of them too.
The other night we where driving back from Colorado, and my oldest turns to me and says I love you MOM. I'm going to sleep now. For a split second. The thought ran through my mind. NO not her too. Call it grief, call it being tired. But I was actually scared that I would lose her too.
We all know that death is like living. It's the order of things. And I know that my dear sister that just left us is in a better place. No more diabetes, or high blood pressure. No more worrying about bills etc.
But the human part of me. Still fears him. And I am not sure how to get over that fear. Is it fear of death. Or losing a love one to him. If the latter is the case than I am just plain selfish.
Another thing that I have come to realize. That I have out grown my name here. I was giving this "HealingWolfWind" by a friend. And I feel now that I need to get back to who I feel I am. Hence the name change to "StarsRaven" I have come to realize that all the label we have for ourselves. Be it Shaman, Witch, Celtic. Somehow I just don't fit. I for the longest called myself a "Kitchen Witch" or a "Hedgewitch" But over the pass few weeks. I am realize that I don't really belong in any of those lables. I don't do the rituals. I do the witchcraft part. Anyway. For now until this confusion I find myself comes together. I am just plain "Pagan". Until I understand this transition I am going through ends.
Anyway. Enough of my ramblings. I just wanted to sort of check in.
Love and Light everyone. Have a great week!!
StarsRaven
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Forest House CovenHalloween, or Hallowe'en, is a holiday celebrated on the night of October 31. Traditional activities include trick-or-treating, Halloween festivals, bonfires, costume parties, visiting "haunted houses" and viewing horror films. Halloween originated from the Pagan festival Samhain, celebrated among the Celts of Ireland and Great Britain. Irish and Scottish immigrants carried versions of the tradition to North America in the nineteenth century. Other western countries embraced the holiday in the late twentieth century. Halloween is now celebrated in several parts of the western world, most commonly in Ireland, the United States, Canada, Puerto Rico, and the United Kingdom.
The modern holiday of Halloween has its origins in the ancient Gaelic festival known as Samhain (pronounced /ˈsˠaunʲ/ from the Old Irish samain). The Festival of Samhain is a celebration of the end of the harvest season in Gaelic culture, and is regarded as 'The Celtic New Year'.
On Halloween night in present-day, adults and children dress up as creatures from the underworld (e.g., ghosts, ghouls, zombies, witches and goblins). Halloween was perceived as the night during which the division between the world of the living and the otherworld was blurred so spirits of the dead and inhabitants from the underworld were able to walk free on the earth. It was believed necessary to dress as a spirit or otherworldly creature when venturing outdoors to blend in, and this is where dressing in such a manner for Halloween comes from.
The houses are frequently adorned with pumpkins or turnips carved into scary faces; lights or candles are placed inside the carvings to provide an eerie effect.
Happy Halloween my Friend!
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